Here it is...

I do admit I went ballistic on him yesterday. I don't know if it deserved it or not. Anyhow, I told my dad to be the judge, so, I sat down and told him everything: What he said, what I said etc... So my dad decided to meet up with him and discuss what is proper and what isn't and apparently they came to terms. My fiance' understood my dad's point of view, I hope he truly comprehends what upset me yesterday.

So, he called me up after they were finished and told me what they talked about and that my dad helped understand a few proper issues of how to deal with ur fiance.

Thanks Allah for everything. Elhamdulilah that You are very close to us and hear our every prayer. Thanks for answering my prayer. Ya Allah, to whom do we go to in our great need if we dont come to Your door. Elhamdulilah.

Ya Allah...

"I'm shocked... devastated... I don't believe what u did yesterday... And then u say I'M OVER-REACTING??? HOW DARE YOU??? Instead of apologizing, u just sat there... smiling disbelievingly... Yes. My mood did change in less than a millisecond. I am a woman with an over-complexed set of feelings and measures of what hurts and what doesnt, so different than ur own measures... Because ur a MAN! And then u say 'what i said doesnt really deserve all that' Well, in ur dictionary it doesnt but in mine it does. "

"Hey, Sara, is it ok with u if I go see my friends for an hour? and be back?"

Oh my God!! Ya Allah!! I dont believe what u just said??? come again??? 1 hour??? And I'm just supposed to sit there at the club waiting for 'ur majesty' to get back??

Is this a relationship? Is this how a man is supposed to treat his fiance'? It must've been a bad dream? A nightmare? Reality-check, it's true! Yes. He did do what I think he did. He preferred to be with his friends at that moment than me. U may ask how many times do u see each other? Once a week is the answer, for a few hours... But now it's 2 hours because yesterday I was dumb-founded with the question... It's ok to cancel our appointment if u have other arrangements... I totally dont mind... But dont just do what u did... It's too hurtful...


Please Allah, Merciful Allah, forgive me for my sins what I meant to do and what I didnt... Ya Allah, lead me to the right way, You are the Most-Gracious. Astaghferallah el Azeem, to you I repent...

I dont know what to do anymore.

He Wishes For The Clothes Of Heaven

Had I the heaven's embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor,
have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

William Butler Yeats

This is my all-time favorite poem... I just shiver whenever I recall it or read it, I just wish I can experience the feeling of the receiving end... As if he's willing to sacrifice of whatever he owns (little as it is) for her sake.

Isn't it divine?

Just Blowing Smoke...

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A long day... How long does it take to take a practical exam??? Guess it??? 1 hour? 2 hours? Actually, 6 hours!!!! Pathetic, huh? Well, I hope our efforts bear fruit, though.

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Tensions are high, as a result of stressful finals coming up! I hope I graduate in one piece... Fighting with my sister (20 years old) over something stupidddddddddd... Actually, she started it and keeps on getting on my nerves!!!! Kids, right? LOL...

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Before hectic exams

Assalam Alaikum Everyone,

I had a great time at "Ein El Sokhna" and of course had time to follow our Egyptian Culture especially on Easter Day as it is custom to colour eggs and eat various types of fish called "Ringa" (smoked fish), "Feseekh" (salted fish) and "Sardines" which is probably smoked too. My aunt, her husband, son, and 2 daughters joined us there and we all had the wildest time. On our last day in our village, my fiance came all the way from Cairo and spent the whole day with my family and I. We all traveled completely exhausted that day... Yay!

Of course I couldn't resist the lovely blue, clear ocean of "The Hot Eye" and my whole family took the decision to take a dip into the sea. All the women wore the Hijab Swimming Suit which really doesnt show anything and u can have fun as much as u like with ur family. But of course ur body wont get tanned, only ur face and hands... lol!

I got u some pictures to check out:

They can be tight like the one above, or loose like the one below:

A Trip

Assalam Alaikum All,

I know I havent been posting anything lately but my psychology wasnt up to it...
So here I am, in the middle of Easter Holidays, my academic life is swarming with exams and studies waiting to be done, and the best thing of all; is that I'm totally ignoring all that and jumping away to "Ein El Sokhna" (The Hot Eye). I have no idea of its exact location but I do know that it is a little before "Sewiss"... Talk about having FUN!!! I'm just going to enjoy the sun, beach, peaceful night and have lots of exercise... And the most important thing of all is "Company" which is going to be a blast with my family, and my aunt coming with her family and a small possibility that my fiance can visit us there (But cant sleepover, of course!). Talk about all the advantages, "Ein El Sokhna" is not far from Cairo just 1 hour and a half away so, when we get there we're not exhausted, there's lots of energy to have fun :)

I'm looking forward to enjoying my Easter holiday and I promise to post u some real pics when I get back...